Week 1 of trying to be the ideal me...
1. As a co-worker I kinda suck!! I try to be there for my co-workers, but I have been somewhat of a disgruntle employee...I have been spoiled in having 2 awesome (not all the time awesome, but comparatively speaking they were awesome) supervisors and the one I have had for the past year is sorta not awesome and I have been talking about her in a negative tone, when I know it could be worse! I could have a real witch as a boss (and she actually does exist) so I will attempt to look at the positives in my boss and not focus so much on the negatives when in realty I do not have it that bad.
2. As a mommy, I will not take my kiddos for granted, although sometimes they give me a headache, this weekend I actually saw God in them. As I was getting ready for a party and trying on different outfits that wouldn't make me look "big" (as if the outfit it the reason I look "big") I ended up crying, nothing felt right, it was either too tight, not my style, or too casual...ARGH! I ended up crying and my baby Rene immediately went to his dad and asked what he did to make me cry...I explained to baby Rene that daddy didn't make mommy cry, but I was crying on my own because I didn't feel good. So he looked straight into my eyes and said, "mommy, I think you are beautiful" and I cried even more, because I knew that this was a message from God. I felt God's presence, the same feeling I felt the day I accepted Him into my life as my Lord and Savior...I said to baby Rene, "thank you papa" and I whispered to God, "thank you for thinking I'm beautiful". This was a great moment in life because God sent me a message through my son, in the time that I needed to hear something uplifting my son said I was beautiful...I didn't tell him that I was feeling bad about my body or self image, all I said to him was "I don't feel good" and God immediately stepped in and sent me a message through my boy. All I can say is that I felt amazing in the outfit I picked out and had a great night dancing the night away with the hubby, friends, and family!
3. This past week I must pat myself on the back because I made it to the gym 4 times and I ate healthy Monday through Saturday evening, where I went to a party, and guess what they were serving.......Mexican food!!!! And not your average Mexican food!!! They had a Taco Man!!! My little heart wanted the tacos and my brain was saying "no way, you have worked soo hard this week to just ruin it now", but then my heart said, "you totally deserve it Mayerling, it's all about baby steps and 1 meal will not kill you" sooooo guess who won?!?!?! Yep I had 2 tacos, BUT they were chicken (I believe they are healthier than anything else they were serving) and just a spoonful of beans and rice....way less than if I were not watching what I was eating and I was happy. :o) On Sunday, again I gave out one 1 meal because it was another birthday party, but I limited myself to only 2 slices of pizza and then I had me some chocolate ice cream!! Hey those come along few in between months! What a treat! Besides, I plan to start again hardcore this week!!! So I'm on track!!! YaY for me!!!
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